After years of typing stuff out and toying with the idea, I FINALLY decided to actually get my act together and write a book. I wanted to help others dealing with mental health issues like depression, anxiety, bipolar, cptsd, etc…and I’m curious if any of our anime fans would want to read? FYI, a lot of languages is used so if that bothers you, I’m sorry.
Anime/Manga/Reading/Writing has been my escape since I was little.
Still nervous since no one other than my husband knows the truth about my family and background and I’m basically putting it ALL out there. And if I do decide to actually publish this, if I can help at least one person…maybe I’ve done some good in the world. Maybe all the shit was worth it.
Just a snippet from it….
Everything Wrong With Me
The way I can’t keep a job and still go to another thinking “this one will be different, I’ll be better”
The way I’m constantly pushing friends away and then getting sad when they’re gone. Or when I leave so they don’t have to “deal” with my bull****t anymore.
The way people look at me when they figure it out, either I’m crazy or I’m broken and need fixing. Why can’t I be me?
The way I am constantly walking on eggshells around my own brain, was this burst of energy me or my disease? Am I just slightly disappointed or am I about to crash from stability? Is this happiness or am I manic? Am I really tired or am I depressed again?
The way my appearance is getting worse from the rapid fluctuations, my hair is dry from dying it during a manic episode and thin from de-matting it after a depressive episode.
The way I have to choke down pills just to keep the suicidal ideation at bay.
The way every time we adjust my meds I was hopeful and now I’m just wondering what side effects I’m going to have.
The way I f****k up every friendship. Even the most patient of people eventually give up.
I hate that I can’t have only normal problems. I hate being at war with myself.
Stay tuned for updates!!! I’ll be holding myself accountable now that I’ve let our readers know.
As always,
Keep Smiling!
